goodbye, mdm. today, you were just being transferred to my cubicle. in the morning, you were having a high fever and had cold compress on your forehead. i didn't think anything of it; as fever was quite a common sight. then, i helped you to change your pampers and clear your stools. everything was fine. afterwards, i rushed in and tube-feb you at 10am; feeding was normal.

but when the other nurse came to give you your medication, you didn't respond when she kept shaking you and trying to wake you up. she checked your pulse and there wasn't any. then it was, bing bam boom! many staff nurses rushed in to resuscitate you; one of them jumped up onto your bed and did CPR on you. doctors were called and family were told to rush down.

then it was an hr of vigorous CPR resuscitation and other methods to revive you. doctors performed CPR on you. then we thought we had you back.. we really thought so. the machine "beep beep beep" steadily.. your family came and i informed the doc that they were here. their eyes were very red and i could see that they had been crying before this. they do not want to see you go....

then it was 3pm. it was time for me to knock off; i thought everything was fine for you; relieved on your behalf. an sms came from my friend that you were gone.. my heart feel very sad inside though i only took care of you for 1 shift. imagine how your family must have felt..

but perhaps for you, its a relief. relief from pain; relief from being a burden; relief from everything. finally, brainstem stroke took you away..

one moment we're here on this earth; the other moment we are not. let's treasure our life on this earth and live our life according to God's purposes; only then is it worth living. all thanks be to God, that i am still alive at this moment now..